This story of Us

Before we were strangers
In this journey we called life
Though we walked in this same path
But we never shared even just a glance

We do have our own world
So we don’t have that opportunity
To meet and have a chance
Seeing each other personally

Never thought of that day to come
Hearing about the story of you and your name
Through our common friends
About how God pulled you out from shame

That day become exceptional
As God weaved and linked our lives together
You that one I called a stranger
Will have a part in me forever

Our friends teased us in separate occasions
This secretly makes our heads to question
Bothered by that constant reminder
That there is something it’s just my intuition

Believing not to assume things
Unless it’s being expressed
This kind of feeling
Seems like hard to suppressed

Your almost all of the first, the first man
I open myself to for you feel safe to be with
Sharing our thoughts like everything under the sun
The first one that causes this heart to beat

Recalling the day we had our first talk
Saying Hi stating your name and just call me this
Got your number from our friend
Is it okay to talked with you and be like friends?

Though this is foreign from me
I welcomed you though I’m scared to fall
We talked through the phone a lot of things
From afternoon till dawn

Honestly that time I don’t understand
How you spend your time
Just asking me, How am I?
Answering you with I’m fine

These becomes like a routine
From morning, afternoon to eve
Your constant updating of me
Led me to question could there be something? I believe

Everything I feel is new to me
A mixture of bliss and uncertainty
So I told our pastor about this
For our protection and accountability

Though I’m not sure of what you feel
But for me I tried to control
All this new emotions
Surely I’m really starting to fall

Even the people around us
Saying He likes you this and that
But you never said a word
So I prayed to God for this to stop

I always have this idea
For I’m a one man woman
I continually pray for this feelings
Cause I want to save it for my special someone

You are the first man I was able to comfort
When everyone was calling you but you never answered
So they told me to call you, with the first ring
You answered, sad of the death of someone you cared

We talked the whole night
I can feel you down and sad
You are having hard time to sleep
So you shared everything to me I’m glad

Everything starts to paint a picture
But I don’t want to put meaning into it
Probably scared to know rejection
Scared of this feeling in every bit

These goes on for six years
And one day you finally confessed
The feelings were hidden
No longer a secret as you professed

I’m still on a daze
Can’t exactly imagine
A relationship between you and I
Which another chapter to begin

We are on a bliss
Saying our words of love
Planning for a great future
Thought this is forever to have

But God has a greater plan
When things brought us a part
Our future was at stake
Starts to break our heart

We said our goodbyes
A pain I couldn’t hide
Still we both made a choice
The love we’re not able to fight

Missing you all the time
It’s been four years of forever
My friend and first love
Is now married in this new chapter

Reminiscing of the old times
Amazed how God preserved us for our future partner
We shared such great laughter and pain
Praying for this matter

For me to end your chapter
Waiting for God’s perfect will
And for Him to write my story
As I pray, wait and be still

These are our so called ending
Grateful of our past
As God unveils this story
This story of us

To that Special Someone

What will it be like?
To finally meet you one day,
Exchanging our Hi’s and Hello’s
As if, it’s the only thing we can say

As the time suddenly freeze
Only you in the crowd I see,
That simple smile you have
Just makes my heart soar with glee

Taking that small and persistent step
Just to get to know each other,
Sharing so many things about ourselves
Till time goes further

Thinking on that day
What it’s like for you to hold my hand
To stand by me, be my friend
And be my man

From beginning to the end
Having that kind of love
Praying for you my special someone
Whom I long to have

Staring up in the sky
Wondering when that will be
That special moment
When you and I will finally see

The beauty of God’s special gift
Of bringing Two unique people to One
Filled with imperfection
Like an ugly duckling turned to swan

Each Laughter and tears we shed
Cherishing each talk we shared
A true companion and a friend
All secrets where bared

Knowing each other weaknesses
A lifetime learning of forgiveness
An application of God’s mercy and grace
In this life of blessedness

I will be continually praying
That special and perfect time
When I sing the hymn of life
To that special someone to be mine.

His Attributes

I will forever behold,
The Greatness and Your majesty O, Lord
As our forefathers untold,
Everything the scriptures unfold.

The vastness of Your Greatness,
The heavens and universe is thy witness
Giving life to an empty world
You spoke! Emptiness was furled.

The creation portrays Your Majesty
Artistically and wonderfully to see
As wind and waves gives its praise
Sound of sweet melody they raise.

Your Holiness and Justice overflows,
Even in the beginning it shows.
For the wages of sin is death,
In this, the sinners will fret.

Your Righteousness leads to flood,
The perfection of Your Holy wrath.
But still your Mercy remains,
A rainbow painted in frames.

Man become evil as the days,
Wickedness does it only portrays.
There is no hope found in him,
But sin and lawlessness it may seem.

I am total depraved, guilty and condemned I say,
How can I find hope and be saved?
Still you have shown Your Great Love,
Sending Jesus the only Son you have.

He was crushed, despised and rejected,
Wounds and pains were inflicted.
He took the blame in behalf of me,
So I can be with Him and be free!

The sky darkened and the earth trembled,
A Glorious display of Power to be remembered
The Love of the Father portrayed by the Son,
Displayed in that cross as One.

The Eternal, Omnipresent, Omniscient God,
Whom I can only boast and be glad.
You are the Alpha and Omega,
The Beginning and End.

Not All not all

Not all smile are sincere and not all tears are real.
Not all hi’s are welcoming and not all goodbyes are ending.
Not all hugs are comforting and not all pains are destructive.
Not all laughter are joyful and not all cries are anguish
Not all exposed are true and not all hidden are lies.
Not all you see is right and not all you heard are truth.
Not all not all

The troubling world of Adulthood

Lately I noticed it’s been a struggle for me to enjoy this so called Life.  Now I perceive life  with uncertainties, choices to make, roads to take and decisions to be made. I’m like watching a roller coaster as excitement builds up knowing I would take that ride but suddenly felt dread when I’m on top and waiting for it to drop down and speed up asking myself when will it stop.

I find life so overwhelming, now that I’m in my peak which leads me to think am I going old to fast? That I get easily weak for it seems I’m suck out of energy specially that I’m bombarded with issues and struggles that slowly crept in and worries engulf me. This so called singleness as others associates with restlessness.  Such stage that “responsibility” sinks in. This word that continues to flash inside my head that consumes the peace within me. At this point I’m divided into two one is that I want to turn back time and just go back to the time of my innocence and while the other is enjoying the liberty to make your own decision and manage your time and resources.

This lead me back to my perspective as a Christian and ask myself is it wrong for Christians to feel this way? To feel restlessness?? Tired? and Stressed? Am I ungrateful towards God? Could it be I lack faith that’s why I’m experiencing all this troubles?  Asking myself what will Jesus want me to do in this situation? I know for sure there are millions like me out there having the same issues.  This reminds me once again of all the great men in the bible who had gone through hardships but able to overcome it. How they did it? so I’m going to mention a few then for it’s impossible to enumerate them all.

Let’s talk about Job the bible describe him the most righteous servant of God. This shows us that even righteous suffer. As we all know the story of Job everything he has where taken from him. Death of love ones, abandoned by his wife,sickness, and wrong accusations by his friends assume he must be guilty, since God is just.  Job never knows what really took place in heaven or what’s really the reason of His suffering but perceived it that it was a punishment and later on state that God is unjust. We can relate to this experience and later on realized in repentance that God is truly in control.

Jonah, I found myself guilty and amused to be similar to him in some ways.  The story goes like this when God commanded him to go to Nineveh to preach and warn them about God’s wrath.  Jonah decided to escape and run from it by riding a boat to a different route. Then God sending of a storm and a great fish that allows him to stay inside it’s belly for 3days and we know as the story ends Nineveh repented as they heard about God’s wrath. This allows me to reflect of my own great escape in Life to every circumstances I’m facing and yet still God allows circumstance to draw me back to Him.

Elijah, the famous man from my old story books who displayed God’s great power by prophesying and prayed for fire to fall from heaven the same man who becomes stressed and depressed.Who run to the mountains and hide fearing for his life to Jezebel’s threat. There he finds God’s comfort and strengthened again.  I can just truly imagine how I will react if I’m in his shoe  still I don’t have to cause I can relate to him.

Peter the hot headed and impulsive who denied Jesus 3 times after he declare his love and devotion towards Him. Not to mention David who’ve done his share of sins having adulterated and idolatrous heart. Then what did I gain from listing all this great man? Their flawed character helps me to identify with God’s truth and their weaknesses mirrors what I have.

This gives me comfort that even great man like them experience same struggles that we are facing right now. That this failures and flaws leads us and points us back to Jesus. Reminding us that Christians all the more will experience this and God is in control to everything which surrounds us.

So, what will God wants me to do in this certain situation of my life? Is to solemnly put my trust on Him. Putting all my confidence on Him. He gives us this assurance that in our frailties and imperfections He will sustain, comfort and strengthened us through His word. At times when we face trials let us  remind ourselves How God overcomes the world. As we read and ponder upon God’s word our issues will tend to get smaller. Just like what the scripture stated in 2 Cor. 12:9 “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Still I will perceive life with uncertainties, struggles as I continue living in this world  but I rest upon God’s unfailing love and His promises. That He will always remain faithful and we can come to Him and we find find rest in His presence.  To God be the Glory!